Wait for it....

Dan and I have been engaged for over 2 years. With him being in and out of employment we havent had any money to save. But what is that stopping me from making plans? I dont know, but i havent. Here’s what i have thought out so far.

-Date (not saying, wanna keep it a secret)
-Color Scheme
-Outdoors
-Possible theme
-Ordained Minister
-Style of dress(but not the dress itself)
-Reception at our favorite Chinese Buffet
-Photographer (my nephew)
-Matron of Honor (my sister)
-Best Man (Dan’s brother)

thats all

I dont know where to have it, no where around here is far enough away from the roads where you wont hear cars (cuz people are dicks and will honk) Gma cant travel(hoping she’s still alive when it happens). We want a small ceremony, like super small, just close family, I dont do well with crowds, especially if the crowd is watching me. Seriously, i’m scared of gatherings in my honor, if i could get away with it, i would marry in court, but where the romance in that?

Things i have so far
-Empty invitation cards/album (aunt purchased at a garage sale)
-Possible unity candle
-Planning folders

and that is all. I don’t know what to do. I honestly cant see my wedding, the imagine of it in my head doesnt exist. Is that a sign? Does that mean that it’s not going to happen?
I dont know…..why are weddings such a hassle, who wants to plan it for me?

2 days later and STILL havent seen the new Harry Potter. SHUT THE FUCK UP!!

I HAVE NOT SEEN, NOR WILL I BE ABLE TO SEE HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HOLLOWS PT.2 FOR ANOTHER WEEK OR SO. PLEASE STOP SPOILING EVERYTHING!!!!!!